I found the ALA banned books list. I've already read a good deal of the books on the list, but I'd really like to read the rest.

Strike-through'ed books are books I've read. Bolded books are ones I own. Books with no font decoration I neither own nor have read (but will plan to read, haha~)

( Some of these are ridiculous. I mean, The Great Gatsby? Come ON. )

I love how American Psycho is so fucked up that it didn't even make it on the list.

At present I'm reading The Secret Life of Bees which I must write a report for by Tuesday. I'm on page 3. Urk.

Anyway, I have a $25 Barnes and Noble giftcard that's been rotting away in my pocketbook. What should I spend it on?

He can't take me to prom.

Fuck.

We're learning about the circulatory system in Bio I and it's grossing me the hell out. I can watch anything sexual and read it and write it - but I can't take gore. Any movie with any blood freaks me out, including bloody noses. Just the sight of that slimy red liquid sends me into complete freak-out mode.

What's weird is that in some circumstances I can deal with it, usually in the written form. I had an RP with mocha_cocoa a while back, for instance, in which Roxas was basically bashing Axel's head against the floor and trying to choke him and beating him and for some reason I found it kind of totally sexy? And I can deal with blood in DOGS, mostly because it's a black and white manga and not in color or anything. But if they ever animated it I'd be in bad shape because even cartoon blood makes my stomach churn.

So studying the heart and the circulatory system is totally gross to me because I can't even look at an illustrated picture of a heart without feeling squicked.

What about you, friends list? What grosses you out?

[prom update: He says his parents are "thinking about it." I've pretty much lost all hope at this point.]

I need something to keep me busy this weekend besides our crappy history take-home test and studying for biology. Oh, and prom. Can't forget that.

So I'm taking banner requests from my friends-list :] I'll make anyone a banner like the kind on my profile. Just give me a picture and any dimensions you'd like. It can be a header, a profile banner, a friends-only banner, WHATEVER.

In other news, 81 on my algebra test UGH ;___; I was so confident when I took it, too! Fuck, I'm going to have to study like crazy for this final exam in order for it to replace my lowest test grade. I doubt I'll get my grade up to an A (right now it's an 80).

Goddamit. ALGEBRA II/PRE-CALC, YOU ARE SUCH A USELESS SUBJECT.

Edit: I had to re-edit the word "friends" in the subject line three times. School, you are fucking my brain.

I have a problem.

In my Confirmation class we’re required to write a letter to Father – our priest – formally requesting the sacrament of Confirmation. So basically even if we’re in the class we still have to write about exactly why we want to be Confirmed and what exactly we have to offer to the church. In addiction we have to have a private interview with Father sometime before we are Confirmed and THEN we have to go to confession so he can forgive us for all our fuck ups.

I don’t know what to do about any of this. How the hell am I going to write my letter? I mean, I could always bullshit it, but truth be told I don’t know how to bullshit it. “Hi, I want to be Confirmed even though I really don’t know if I believe there’s a kingdom of peace waiting for me when I die and I think half of the Bible is totally superfluous and contradictory of itself.” It just feels like they’re purposely trying to corner us into doing this, and like hell I’m backing out of it after my parents already paid for the class and would totally disown me if I decided against what everyone in my family has done.

Given, I’d rather be Catholic than any other Protestant denomination. Here in the deep south a lot if Protestants are positively batshit insane, no offense.

It doesn’t help that our priest already doesn’t like me. On the church camp out I was in a tent with three girls familiar with KH and we were up all night talking about the obvious gay love between Axel and Roxas and his tent was right behind us and he yelled at us for being too loud all night :D So come confession, he’ll probably be expecting me to fess up about the porn.

This is just so annoying. I have no idea how I’m gonna BS my way out of this. My whole traditional Roman Catholic family is counting on me. Ugh.

( Behind a cut because I'm ashamed )

In other news, I redid my profile layout :D I'm really proud of it even though a lot of other people have the same type. The banner was hell to make, though.

UGH THIS JOURNAL IS POINTLESS. FUCK YOU, GREAT GATSBY ESSAY. WHY CAN'T I JUST WRITE ABOUT THE OBVIOUS HOMOEROTIC SUBTEXT BETWEEN NICK AND GATSBY INSTEAD?! UUUUGGGGHHH.

I AM ANNULLING OUR MARRIAGE D<

YOU STILL TOTALLY OWE ME FOR THE OTHER NIGHT. BITCH.

So. I'm looking for a full-time beta.

Lately I've just been nagging whoever happens to be online when I need a fic read over but now I'd realy like someone permanent that I can e-mail my stuff to. I need someone hash and fast - as in, getting an edited version of whatever I've sent (and since I usually only write drabbles this shouldn't take long) within the day.

But since I poke around in numerous fandoms I may have to find a few? I dunno. Right now I'm only focused on KH, seeing as it's the only fandom I'm currently writing for. Tales of the Abyss, DOGS, and Code Geass fics have been brewing in my mind for a while but I'll worry about that when I actually start writing them.

Thanks guys :]

We bought my plane tickets for Michigan! This solidifies it; from June 17-25 I will be chillin' with eleventh_end~

But first I have to get through May. And I am dreading it.

Exams, prom, heaps of projects and homework, boyfriend, online stuff, Confirmation... bah. I'll make it but it's going to be a total drag.

In other news - I think I might've found myself a new fandom - Code Geass. It's fabulously animation and really does have an engaging plot, oodles of slashy undertones, pretty boys with guns... I really liked Karen at first but when it turned out she went to Lulu's school and was just one of those quiet, smart, beautiful outsider girls I lost a lot of my approval for her. Is it so hard to have a downright violent, dedicated girl that isn't some kind of gentle beauty? .___.

Suzaku/Lulu for the win, though~ I really like Lulu's power obsession; it's a lot like Yagami Raito's from Death Note except it didn't get UNREALISTIC and BORING D< But then again I've only seen three episodes so we'll hope Lelouch stays cool :3

I need to finish my 5drunkfics claim so I can start on a 7 deadly sins claim for Haine/Badou of DOGS. But a the same time I don't want to be one of those writers that only writes for theme sets! ;~; Perhaps instead of making another claim I'll begin on the first chapter of the epic. Perhaps.

I kind of want them to make an anonymous meme v. 2 XD I know I swore I wouldn't, but my curiosity is beginning to get the better of me when it come sto how people think of me and stuff.

Oh, one last thing - I'm taking graphics requests over here, so don't hesitate to make a request :] And despite how much I just complained about all the crap I have to do, I actually find making icons quite theraputic and a way to kind of disattach myself from my life. It feels nice.

( Behind a cut because I know your FLs are being raped with this. )

...lol. Changed since the last time I did it.

THE VERDICT?

i'm still unpopular lol.

BUT I BUY MY TICKETS FOR MICHIGAN TOMORROW, YAY.

Today was actually quite fabulous even though I couldn't go to Kelly's party. I sat outside until I caught my creepy neighbor eyeing my scantily clad body and quickly retreated back inside D:

The rest of the day was spent making icons and listening to music and roleplaying. Later on at night I watched Gakuen Heaven and JUST NOW finished watching the last episode. I thought it was really sweet... had a few flaws and got kind of weird in some places but otherwise I enjoyed it. Now I'm all in "the mood" and just started watching Descendants of Darkness (also know as Yami no Matsuei). I have a feeling I won't be able to take it seriously though, thanks to the flying car video.

For some reason I feel very... not stressed, which is weird. I have algebra homework and have to completely finish reading my novel for College Success tomorrow (I'm only halfway through) and yet I don't feel any kind of anxiety about it. I probably shouldn't be up this late seeing as in addition to all that homework I also have Confirmation class. I actually really enjoy the class; the couple teaching it are extremely nice and funny.

...HOLY GOD DESCENDANTS OF DARKNESS IS HILARIOUS LOLOLOLOL. ZOMBIE IN FRENCH MAID OUTFIT = A+. I had seen bits of it here and there but I've never sat down and actually WATCHED the whole thing. Wow.

I have a few entries planned for sometime this week. As in entries pertaining to my favorite books and movies and fanfics, etc.

This entry is so boring D:

Tagged by both hyde_lover010 and riku_replica. WTF YOU GUYS ARE TOTALLY BREAKING MEME TAGGING RULES.

lol ilu ♥

List 7 songs you are into right now. no matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're any good, they must be songs you're really enjoying now. post these instructions in your livejournal along with your 7 songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they're listening to.

1. A Twist In My Story - Seconhand Serenade
2. Smooth - Santata w/ Rob Thomas
3. Hope - Apocalyptica
4. I Would Do Anything for Love - Meat Loaf
5. Insatiable - Darren Hayes (thanks, llama_sama .__.)
6. London Bridge - Fergie
7. Start the Machine - Angels and Airwaves

Tagging whoever feels like it XD

If anyone wants a song here, lemme know and I'll be more than happy to upload it 8D I'm just unable to do it right now because I have Youth Group soon. Uuuugh.

*has edited the songs in this post like 4 times ahaha*

So apparently that anonymous meme thing is going around. I never get much feedback when I do those so I doubt I'll do it. Besides, if you guys had something you wanted to say to me you'd say it, right?

I had a huge Biology test today followed up by a pretty big Algebra test. My fingers are crossed but I have a feeling I got B's on both.

Yahoo Mail has been malfunctioning on me all day. I'm seriously fed up with this site and I'm thinking about making a permanent switch to MSN. Yahoo has problems ALL the time; their Classic Mail is frustrating and ugly and their Beta Mail constantly has problems.

I sat outside today and had my lunch. As a result my shoulders are burned.

Wow, I sound awfully whiny, don't I? *lol doesn't care*

Good news, though! I get to visit eleventh_end in Michigan this summer! We're thinking June 16-26 once my father gets home from Texas and we can buy the plane tickets. I'm nervous about being an unaccompanied minor, of course. I'm the most paranoid person in the world and I'll probably be shaking like crazy until I'm in the car.

By the way, I finished all the replies on the Honesty Meme. If LJ won't let you see my reply because it's screened, make sure you have your e-mail commenting turned on and see it there. Or just tell me to unscreen it/e-mail you.

That's pretty much all the news I have. I've been feeling really obnoxious lately, to be honest. Both online and off I feel like people get kind of annoyed by me and I don't know why that is. I've been kind of reflecting on the things I say and how I act and I've come to the conclusion that I need to relax a bit more and act friendlier towards people.

Or maybe I'm just imagining it... though this is also part of the reason I'm afraid of doing an anonymous meme. I don't mind friends telling me how they really feel but I don't want ANONYMOUS friends to comment about how I act stupid or say mean/inappropriate things when I'm unable to figure out exactly who has the problem with me.

What do you guys think? Am I obnoxious/do I act overly stupid sometimes?

HERE.

I dunno, I felt like making a FST to write porn to. Please take it D: I spent all night compiling it and NONE of my homework is done.

BY THIS TIME TOMORROW MY BRACES WILL BE OFF LSKDJFHG

( Reasons Why the World is Doomed #2 )

/literature nerd

I still have a Great Gatsby project to do. Maybe I should make a manga out of THAT.

Oh my god, Florida.

So we had this constitutional convention thing today. A lot of it was bullshit; the state representatives that came to talk to us were spewing long-winded, fluffy explanations that didn't answer any questions or reflect their views.

Somehow they steer the conversation towards morality in the government.

"So, how many of you think beastiality is immoral?"

*all hands raise*

"Now, how many of you think that beastiality should be illegal?"

And this guy - in his 50's, easily, overweight, redfaced - "UM, SIR."

"Yes?"

"I don't think killing animals is immoral, I don't think it should be illegal."

"..."

"..."

"...Sir, beastiality is engaging in sexual activity with an animal."

ROCKS FALL, SOPHOMORE CLASS DIES.

First period in eight hours and I don't care.

Lol meme. Pick ten friends and answer questions about them.

( I't s miracle that I have friends, really :F )

Yeah, figured it was time for another update. Since Spring break's almost over and all... and I have officially gotten NOTHING done with the exception of all the icons I've been making like mad. It's actually quite theraputic. I've even entered a few contests over the week.

I've written a bit for Meg's fic and told myself I'd finish it this weekend, hopefully today. I'd like to make a claim over at 5drunkfics once I'm done with all my gift fics. And I'd like to get started on the epic but I'm still waiting for eleventh_end to get through at least some of the prologue before I begin. Sounds like I'm the slacker out of the two of us, I know, but I just need some kind of... foundation before I begin, I guess.

Aaron hasn't called me all week. I guess he's having fun with his other friends, then. It's kind of a shame because I really did want to go to the beach this week, but whatever. I don't want to go if it means having to be around people I don't like that don't like me.

Oh, and mocha_cocoa? I'm not mad at you xD I was just. Annoyed. Yeah lols.

reversiblelove WHERE ARE YOU, ARGH.

My parents bought me a new iPod. Unfortunately I'm not getting the 30 GB that I used to have; I'm getting one of those new square Nanos. I mean, I'm glad I'm getting it - we're in kind of a bad financial situation right now so it was kind of really nice of my parents to get me a new one so fast - but I still kinda miss my old one. Oh well, this one will be more practical I guess. It holds 2,000 songs and my last iPod had about 1,000 on it.

Speaking of songs... I lost a lot of music that was on my iPod that wasn't backed up on my computer. Anyone willing to offer some downloads? That'd be really nice, and as thanks I promise to make another FST as soon as I get all my music sorted out again :]

I feel like writing now 8D

EDIT: ( RANDOM ART LESSON! )